As I was picking up the house this morning I felt the Holy Spirit tell me that I needed to get a card and drop it off to the Dr. at Urgent Care. (See yesterday’s post) My guards instantly went up and I thought there is no way. all I could picture was his face telling me to “LEAVE NOW!!!” I thought I had forgiven him and it was all over and I would never have to go back there anyway. UGH Will I ever learn?? I still had a little bitterness in my heart that I needed to let go of so I told God fine I will have Joe get a card and drop it off. God said NO you will go get a card and write a kind note in it directly from your heart then you will take it there all by yourself!! Talk about scared and embarrassed. So I asked God to free me from all bitterness toward him and then this song by Mathew West came on Pandora “Forgiveness”
And the last thing on your mind today
It always goes to those that don’t deserve
It’s the opposite of how you feel
When the pain they caused is just too real
It takes everything you have just to say the word…
Forgiveness
Forgiveness
It flies in the face of all your pride
It moves away the mad inside
It’s always anger’s own worst enemy
Even when the jury and the judge
Say you gotta right to hold a grudge
It’s the whisper in your ear saying ‘Set It Free’
Forgiveness, Forgiveness
Forgiveness, Forgiveness
Show me how to love the unlovable
Show me how to reach the unreachable
Help me now to do the impossible
Forgiveness, Forgiveness
Help me now to do the impossible
Forgiveness
It’ll clear the bitterness away
It can even set a prisoner free
There is no end to what it’s power can do
So, let it go and be amazed
By what you see through eyes of grace
The prisoner that it really frees is you
Forgiveness, Forgiveness
Forgiveness, Forgiveness
Show me how to love the unlovable
Show me how to reach the unreachable
Help me now to do the impossible
Forgiveness
I want to finally set it free
So show me how to see what Your mercy sees
Help me now to give what You gave to me
Forgiveness, Forgiveness”
I INSTANTLY felt better!! ALL the symptoms of my kidney infection went away and felt AMAZING again!!! I was so happy to go get him a card and I thanked him for giving me a second chance and for helping me feel better. Because HE DID!!! When he came back in that room yesterday he was SO KIND AND COMPASSIONATE. I may never know if he got the card or if he even read it but I know that I feel FREE from bitterness!! He was allowed to have a bad day. I don’t believe it ever really had anything to do with me anyway. He admitted he was in a hurry the first time and I just don’t think we were understanding each other. I am so glad I went back and got the help I needed for my kidney infection.
I’m sure he got the card! That’s wonderful! Proud of you my little Ang!
That is awesome to be able to forgive and feel it within your heart. It truly does make one feel so much better. You are doing awesome Angie. Better than a lot of us that seem not to have the problems you have. I am proud of you and glad you are who you are! <3