As I was picking up the house this morning I felt the Holy Spirit tell me that I needed to get a card and drop it off to the Dr. at Urgent Care. (See yesterday’s post) My guards instantly went up and I thought there is no way. all I could picture was his face telling me to “LEAVE NOW!!!” I thought I had forgiven him and it was all over and I would never have to go back there anyway. UGH Will I ever learn?? I still had a little bitterness in my heart that I needed to let go of so I told God fine I will have Joe get a card and drop it off. God said NO you will go get a card and write a kind note in it directly from your heart then you will take it there all by yourself!! Talk about scared and embarrassed. So I asked God to free me from all bitterness toward him and then this song by Mathew West came on Pandora “Forgiveness”
[ “Forgiveness” by Matthew West played here - the original post quoted the song lyrics in this spot ]
I INSTANTLY felt better!! ALL the symptoms of my kidney infection went away and felt AMAZING again!!! I was so happy to go get him a card and I thanked him for giving me a second chance and for helping me feel better. Because HE DID!!! When he came back in that room yesterday he was SO KIND AND COMPASSIONATE. I may never know if he got the card or if he even read it but I know that I feel FREE from bitterness!! He was allowed to have a bad day. I don’t believe it ever really had anything to do with me anyway. He admitted he was in a hurry the first time and I just don’t think we were understanding each other. I am so glad I went back and got the help I needed for my kidney infection.