Archive | June 2014

My first post

Hi my Name is Angie. I have been married to my husband, Joe for 7 years. We have 2 beautiful daughters. Ava will be 5 in July and Alayna, she will be 3 in July.  I spent the last 10 years of my life addicted to prescription pain medication. I had frequent kidney stones then I had back surgery and it was all down hill from there until GOD healed me 5 weeks ago. I hated taking pain medication. I hated the way it made me feel although it was my best friend and if you tried to take it away from me I would become the  meanest person you ever met. I knew exactly how to get what I wanted. I am not proud to say that I could manipulate almost anyone but if anyone said I was manipulative I would come unglued. I had legitimate pain but I was self medicating trying to numb every feeling in my body. I tried for 10 years to stop but nothing worked. I believed in God and I prayed and I believe my hearts desire was in the right place. Every night before I went to bed I was not sure if I would wake up the next day because I was up to 30 10/325 Norco a day or ultram. I stopped taking care of myself. I would go 7 or 8 days without even taking a shower. I hurt constantly. I was gaining weight like crazy. I was constantly worried about where I was going to get my next pill. I counted my pills all the time. I had dreams about pills every night. I also knew every trick possible to get more. I was the worst of the worst and I had hit rock bottom something had to change. I called rehab places but I did not have a peace about that. I tried countless times to do it on my own but I couldn’t. When I could not find any medicine I went through withdrawals from hell it was the worst feeling in the world. I turned to God and begged him to help me get off those evil things that controlled my every move. I continued to turn to God and 5 weeks ago HE spoke to me and said “Your suffering is over I am giving you a whole new body.” That night I fell into a very peaceful sleep one I had not ever experienced. When I woke up something was different. I didn’t go directly to my pill bottle. I didn’t go outside and have a cigarette. I didn’t require sugar and caffeine to wake me up. There was NO pain in my back my knees or my neck. There was no cravings for any of them. The same thing happened for the next several days and there was no withdrawals. God spoke to me again and said ” You had to go through everything in your life for a reason every addiction every single thing you have ever went through was part of my plan for your life. But things are different now. Be at peace my child.” All my anxiety left my body and colors brightened and I have not been the same. I am happy very very happy.  God healed me and he has a plan for your life too. I would not change one single thing that I have went through in my life because the peace and happiness I now have was worth it.  Everyday I am in AWE of what God is doing in my life. He has even bigger plans for me and it is the most exciting feeling. I can not even describe it. Overnight I stopped taking pain pills, I stopped smoking, I stopped drinking pop and I stopped eating sugar.   I lost 20 pounds in 2 weeks and I am healed. This is impossible without God.